Capital "G"

This tirade was inspired by a news story today that Sarah Palin is the third most popular GOP candidate for 2012- no offense to anyone and none intended. … wondering why I feel reticent, uneasy, because I have this overwhelming urge to tell people, whom I love,cherish, and respect, that I react the constant references to, and messages about God, that one with a capital G….I respect their views- it works for them, but to include it in so much of the social media, email, chats, and live, in person, makes me wonder– how do we define that ‘something’ that IS bigger than us-and to attach instructions and conditions - like – ‘if you just pray, this cancer will be away…or, if you don't live and act a certain way, you are doomed...I am content to know that I am in awe of whatever it is that’s ‘bigger’ than us, me, but in probably 99% of traditional religious arenas, me, my past, my lifestyle, my wife, are regarded as some kind of sick perversion– STILL. In 2010, does this still happen-how is there still racism, sexism, judgment, intolerance, rage and hate-most of it driven and justified by religion if you really look at history, and the present.

They say we should avoid religion and politics, but what the hell, it’s that kind of morning-one of reflection, affection for all my friends, love for my family, but, as well, my truth at this moment-I do pray, for lack of a better word, just not sure what or who hears me- and I’m okay with that-with the knowledge and humility that something is greater than I, than us. I guess the bottom line for me is the vast difference between religion and spirituality…. Above all else, having the friends and family I have – is what are the closest thing to god for me, without the capital G. their energy and love are what sustains, fills me. So I thank them. And, above all else, the fact that I did feel reticent, uneasy about sharing this – my truth, says something….it shouldn’t, but it does – it says that if one doesn’t quite fit with what seems to be a majority, then one is somehow not good enough or should be fearful. I beg to differ.